My interview about Tantra and Kundalini on the I AM Well Show (18.12.13) is now available to listen on-line:
In this interview I share some of my own story about how I got into tantra, my understanding of what tantra and kundalini actually is and how to get involved in tantra.
"Knowledge of that which is alive can alone banish terror."
Do We Really Want Free Energy?
In my tantra work I've worked with quite a few women here in Ireland who have never had an orgasm nor even looked at their genitals - they do not know what they are like. This is an astonishing fact for a lot of people. The suppression of the feminine (Shakti/sexual energy) is particularly aimed at women (it does affect men too) and many feel completely shamed at simply just being a woman - this is often a sub-conscious belief that they are not even aware they have.
Because of the over sexualisation of women and their bodies, it is even more confusing today for women to understand themselves due to so many mixed messages in the media and entertainment industry. It is no surprise to me that both men and women are still having major difficulties with their sex lives!
We know barely anything about the power of sexual energy - even in tantric circles, we are only just beginners but if we want peace and harmony on Earth, it is essential we as a species claim our divine birth right and open to becoming fully sexually charged humans as sexual energy is the key to becoming empowered. This will require a radical re-think about what sex means, and a necessary letting go of our erroneous beliefs we formed through false information being fed to us over millennia.
The battle for power is going on right now in the world and is showing up in numerous variations from war to rising home-fuel prices. But right now we have the technology for free energy but it's hidden, kept secret and all attempts so far to share it have come to a sticky end. Why is this any different to our own inner free energy that we are shutting down and hiding away?
Kundalini is ALIVE and waiting to be recognised within each and every one of us - once it is awakened we begin to know our own intrinsic worth and value. We start to know our power and understand our inter-connectedness with nature. Sexual energy IS nature...consciously awakening Kundalini means you can and will know the Earth in a truly intimate way. Once this happens, you know you are part of the Earth, not separate and you KNOW you will be provided for. Survival mentality disappears and there is no possibility of listening to an outside authority who is trying to control you. This is not an over-night or one-off process; it's a journey of becoming. Becoming sexually liberated means owning and understanding our power, that which we are born of is the most beautiful and natural expression of God on this planet and in this universe.
I’m a very visual person, especially when it comes to media like movies or images on the computer. I find hours can disappear fast as water down the plug-hole as I become totally immersed in looking through photos and artwork on the internet. Ask me to find an image on a theme I like and I’m kept entertained for hours, especially if it’s nature! That’s what happened when I had decided I needed a new website for my tantra work, One Heart Tantra. I was currently using a theme of a woman holding a red rose but wanted a change whilst still using a floral theme. I had settled on Orchids as my main theme, as I find them so exquisitely beautiful. I LOVE nature and am constantly inspired by what I see, feel and interact with, whether that be trees, rocks, pieces of dead wood, stones, plants, water, animals, insects and of course, flowers. My task for the site was to find several orchid pictures. I’d already located the main picture, but I needed these for the 8-10 individual pages on the website.
So here I was, trawling through Google searches for Orchid photographs for hours over a three-day period. I knew it was obsessive behaviour; I could have been far more efficient with my time but I was totally hooked on these orchids. Each picture I viewed showed me another variety, another colour and shape, another aspect of the orchid energy. I became so involved with them that I would see them in my inner vision at night times as I was dropping off to sleep and again on waking in the morning.
On the third evening I had gone back onto the computer immediately after dinner. Isaac and I had agreed to watch a movie together and I’d promised him a foot rub too. But I’d become totally absorbed in my quest to find the perfect orchid picture and I was now fascinated with some incredible close-up shots of the flowers; some were like little faces and I found myself ooh-ing and ahh-ing at their cuteness, marvelling at their characters – they were very much coming alive in front of my eyes!
Some were like female genitalia, so incredibly & overtly sexual that I caught myself staring at them in incredulity, mouth agape and energetically magnetised to them. This was as tantric as it gets!
My reverie was interrupted by Isaac reminding me of our agreement so I tore myself away and settled into watching the movie and giving loving attention to his feet, all thoughts of orchids gone… for the moment.
Thirty minutes later I notice I’m feeling slightly edgy and I wonder if I’ve picked up some sort of negative energy or spent too much time on the computer. I do a bit of energetic clearing and deep breathing but it doesn’t help and the edginess continues; it’s like an irritation I can’t stop, like a knocking on the door that is unanswered and the visitor knows I’m home so won’t go away. I’m almost convinced now I’m under some sort of minor psychic attack so more clearing and ground exercises ensue but again, it doesn’t help and by now I’m feeling intense edginess and even beginning to feel victimised!
In that moment I suddenly get an insight – it is someone knocking at my door! I remembered from previous times when I had similar experiences and that once I stopped resisting, relaxed and allowed, I had felt an angelic presence that was trying to get my attention. So taking a cue from that, I immediately stopped resisting the energy and instantly my experienced changed from edginess to excitement… like a quickening feeling through my body. I let Isaac know I was ‘going inside’ for some time to connect with an energy being that was here to connect with me. It’s vitally important to let others know what is happening and that everything is okay and in order, otherwise they too could be in resistance or opposition to what’s happening and be very concerned to your safety.
Closing my eyes, softening my body, relaxing into myself and allowing my awareness to drop deeply inside of me and set my intention to only be open to Divine Light of the Most High. Inwardly I said “Greetings, who are you?”
“I Am the Over-lighting Deva of Orchids” was the response.
WOW! My heart opened even more in response to the charm and delicacy of the vibration, tinkling in me like iridescent vortexes of the finest Light. The energy reminds me of crystal or angelic vibration; high, fine, tinkling like a hundred thousand silvery bells whose sound is so fine and high it is barely audible. I felt the purity in its intent to share, to merge energetically with me. I had no apprehension, no fear nor any concern about what was happening. It all felt so completely natural and organic to me and I felt guided my own intelligence. I knew from previous experiences that it was important for me to trust in the moment and to leave any analysing until later. I noticed that every cell and space in my body and my energy fields were vibrating with Light and Joy as I allowed the energy to infuse me on all levels of my being. I felt I was radiating, pulsing sphere of bright luminescence light. I used my breath to direct the energy out through my body from my core out through my energy fields, radiating and sharing this experience as a gift to my family, friends and any being that was open to receiving …touching them with my mind and loving them from my heart.
Oh such sweet ecstasy! I can feel its curiosity! In this moment I recognised that it’s a Divine Child of such purity and innocence, and it is achingly beautiful! Such deep wisdom yet a lightness of being, of ‘knowing’ itself and its place in Creation – to feel even that is indescribably beautiful! I was becoming undone. It is so gentle too, and I was utterly captivated by this experience – such sweetness!
There was a sexual element too, although not in a way that most people would think of when the word sexual is used to describe something. There wasn’t a big arousal happening in my body, this was like waves of bliss pulsing through me, dancing and playing in and with my body which was responding in kind sending waves of pleasure of awareness back to the Plant Spirit. As much spiritual as sexual but one did not deny the other. As we danced our swirling dance of Love we explored each other intimately, learning of the others’ experiences, not at the level of mind but sharing at the level of pure Spirit, both incredibly simple and incredibly complex in its possibilities. At my core, I knew this was what Creation was about; communion with another. I was sharing Divine Intelligence with another aspect of Mother/Father God – we were both experiencing each other and self as a Divine Child and Creator simultaneously. In this fusion there was no separation and yet an awareness of ‘the other’ was apparent.
I think that is what it takes to feel ecstasy in the body– to know the truth of simplicity of Being together with the infinite potency of Creation in its myriad of complex permutations without any need to control or limit or even direct the outcome in any way. What is it that can happen when two come together with purity of intention to merge at the level of Spirit and put nothing in between them? Only in that Holy Grail can Spirit drop a Seed of Consciousness. This is Sacred Union.
It was so, so exquisite that words cannot begin to describe how it felt. In recalling this experience I called in the Spirit of the Plant and took myself back into the experience – time travel if you will. My subtle and physical energy began to vibrate as the memories arose in me and I can feel the presence of the Orchids as I write. So I simply trust that because you are reading this you too are open to having interaction at this level and that an energetic experience can come across to you in the spaces between my words, and through my intention to share this experience with you, so you too can know how beauty and Love beyond our conditioned society is always available to those who seek and are open to allowing.
I had this experience because of my fascination with the orchids; it had created a universal calling to the guardian angel of the plant, which is the divine blueprint that each and every living being has. We don’t need to read about plants in books in school, we only need to communicate with them, to find where our fascination lies and allow that to show us the way. The intelligence will respond in kind. That’s just the way things work.
If you’d like to explore or find out more, then call, email or message me! I love working with people to help them open to these experiences and I offer this in person or via Skype.
“If your flame of awareness is burning bright, you will know that sex is not just sex. Sex is the outermost layer; deep inside is love, and even deeper is prayer, and deepest is God himself. Sex can become a cosmic experience; then it is tantra.” - Osho
Beyond our mind-made labels of who we think we are as sexual or spiritual entities, beyond our concepts of sexuality of straight, bi, gay or any other identification we have, is Love. Osho knew this and elegantly shared it in the quote above.
To know thyself as Love, both as an individual and as the One, is the realisation we long for, even we do not yet know it. It takes a lot of self-trust and courage to really let go into ecstasy - and someone to hold their own heart-space as they give unconditionally to you. In their field of Love and appreciation where nothing is expected from you, and where you are simply free to be yourself without fear of judgement or control, You as a human/divine being can find your true nature.
Hearts align, peace is found and the Universe sings it's song of Love.
I was honoured to experience someone's direct experience of this in one of my 'Triple Goddess 'Wow' sessions for women - I added the 'wow' after receiving this feedback along with others which made it clear the power and deep, deep beauty which is realised during these sessions. For this session, I was joined by my fellow tantrika Jayde who has since completed her training with One Heart Tantra in Tantra Massage and Sacred Touch.
In these sessions it it usual for each woman to embody an aspect of the Triple Goddess, Crone, Mother and Maiden. Age has nothing to do with who embodies who...and the roles are interchangeable during sessions.
"Soon enough I noticed that Lynn and Jayde’s energies had merged into one powerful goddess energy. I could not tell who was where on my body. There was no separation. I was part of this Oneness, along with the rest of the universe. The oneness permeated every breath, every movement, every touch… It was safe to let go.
A fiery energy filled my entire being. I felt every cell of my body awakening, vibrating with life. Their tantalizing touch took over, and I gave in, moaning my way into total surrender. Their breasts brushing over my face and body, their hands consciously exploring every inch of me. There was powerful softness in their sensual touch. Arousal was pulsing through my yoni and through my heart. I felt so expanded that the concept of ‘I’ seemed meaningless in that moment. As the energy danced through my body, I met the divine in me. I was humbled by the simple and honest beauty of my essence. Much love to you both."
It is important not to leave out men in this topic, as they can and do have these experiences, though it must be said that it is generally easier for a woman to let go in this way than it is for men to do so. But not impossible by any means. The more men who do experience this, the more it will become 'known' in the collective energy field of human consciousness, and the easier it becomes to know ourselves in this way.
Seeking pleasure is not healing, yet allowing self to experience pleasure is incredibly healing and liberating. This is the mystery of tantra, of life.
If you'd like to know more about 4-handed tantric massages please read through the info. on my site and feel free to contact me for further info.
May you discover the bliss that is You!